I had to fight my way out of the dark mood. Had to put on the gloves and put up my dukes.
- Ate a healthy breakfast; 2 hard-boiled eggs, whole-grain toast topped with mashed avocado and a shake of chili pepper flakes. My friend Rachael is a nutritionist in town, and I'm planning to start a program with her where you are allowed to have wine and a dessert once a week, but you otherwise crowd out sugar. I'm jumping on the wagon now. Again.
- Took it step by step. I allowed myself to lay on the couch while Dan read The New York Times, as he does every morning. I told him I was getting closer to my office that way, instead of going back to bed.
- Allowed myself to watch a movie: "The Lovely Bones," the 2009 movie based on the 2002 novel by Alice Sebold. Our book group read it, and it is beautifully written. I thought I had never seen it, and still think that, but the story came back to me as the film progressed--that's probably because of Ms. Sebold's vivid writing. What a novel, what a script, what a view of heaven. [Note: This was pricey, but no worse than had I had lunch out. The OnDemand charge was a steep $14.99. I didn't have the option to rent, which is much cheaper--only to buy.]
- I put on Sug's blue L.L. Bean winter coat, a recent hand-me-down from Buttercup. I pulled on tights under my skirt, laced up my sneakers, zipped my jacket. This is a big deal. When you are depressed, even tying your shoes can feel like a chore.
- Sug and I walked the 20 minutes to town; she waited outside Chase while I deposited a check and outside Juice Culture while I ordered a bowl made with organic whole milk yogurt, blueberries and strawberries. We walked back home, her tail high as she pranced along. She scratched at our front door with her paw; she knew her dinner waited on the other side.
- I hope to continue to function. I'm at my computer. I've lit pretty candles. I'm going to make vegetarian chili.
Eating well, getting outside and moving, these are huge, huge, huge. Keep at it. We are all works in progress.
ReplyDeleteThank you, as always, Nan.
DeleteI’m here and reading. ❤️Love, Lin
ReplyDeleteThank you, Lin. Love Al
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