FOR SUNDAY--Obligatory Tracking

Black garb.
This is such a scary image, I am scared to paste it here.
I like pictures of pretty things.
I am still afraid of "The Wizard of Oz."
Image from HERE.

I'm still shrouded in darkness, cloaked in isolation. I have been talking to my nuclear family, to my Sis, but I cannot manage too much other communication. Could not return Mother's Day greetings by phone or text, except one. Too hopeless. Too false.

It's a bulky coat, but I want to leave it on--all the while knowing at some level that self-pity is the worst disease of all and that others have problems much heavier to bear, and wear.

I remember once, a few years back, being so depressed that for days, I did not remove the snow-white acrylic fur-trimmed hat that my grandmother bought me at the Florence Shop in Bergenfield. I even slept in it.

So, it's only been what? A week or so or recording this? And it is hella hard to keep up with while dealing with what 12-step programs call "Life on life's terms." But I'm doing my best to record Food and Money even through the depths, where visibility is bad. Or maybe it's crisp and clear, and that's why I'm in pain.

FOOD SUNDAY

• Sal's Gastronomia bagel and lox. Each kit came with bagels, sliced lox, little cups of best smoked whitefish, egg salad, cream cheese and everything bagel seasoning, plus sliced tomato and red onion. My friend recommended it. Over the course of the day, I had 1 3/4 bagels with fixings. 
• Roasted cauliflower with lemon.
• Roast marinated turkey.
• Piece bread with pesto.
• A little mascarpone.
• 4 smallish? Hungry Jack pancakes with butter and pure maple syrup.
• Sliced provolone, multi-grain saltines.
• Glass of milk.
• 1/2 small beet brownie.
• Coffee with whole milk.
• Ice water.
• Cup of iced pink lemonade.
• Glass of Prosecco.
• A little KETO coffee ice cream. Hard as rock. You must let it soften or zap in microwave for maybe 20 seconds. No sugar added.

$ MONEY SPENT OUT OF POCKET

• Sal's, again trying to support local Montclair restaurants, and here, you can also get groceries, so I got 2 balls burrata; tofu; head of cauliflower; blackberries; and raspberries x2. Two bagel boxes at $18 each. A treat. Thank you, Punch said, enjoying a bagel w lox. That was a bright spot. $71.42.
• Nordstrom credit card, hair accessories, including one by Marimekko, $32.80.

Ongoing monthly spend as of May 10: $990.48.

Avg daily spend: $99.05.

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Keep an eye on/compare to previous months:

April: Total monthly spend: $2,143.19.
Avg daily spend: $71.44.

March--the effect of coronavirus quarantine and not working in NYC for now

Total monthly spend as of March 31: $1,916.15.

Avg daily spend: $61.81.

February

Total monthly spend as of Feb. 29: $2,480.34.
Avg daily spend: $85.53.

January

Total monthly spend as of Jan 31: $3,063.60.

Avg daily spend: $98.83.

December 2019 [Christmas and all that entails]

Total monthly spend as of Dec. 31: $3,998.16. 

Avg daily spend: $128.97. 

November

Total spend for November (30 days): $2,979.03. 

Average daily spend: $99.30. 

October

Total spend for OCTOBER 31 days: $2,495.36.

AVERAGE DAILY SPEND: $80.49.

September

TOTAL SPEND FOR SEPTEMBER (30 DAYS): $2,214.43.

AVERAGE DAILY SPEND: $73.81.

August

TOTAL SPEND FOR AUGUST (31 DAYS/PLUS VACAY IN HERE): $2,895.06. ⬆️

AUGUST AVERAGE DAILY SPEND: $93.39.  ⬆️