I just wrote this:
EVEN IF YOU HATE ME, I WILL STILL TRY TO LOVE YOU
I hope I didn't write or reveal too much, but I'm thinking of doing a series. LMK if you think I compromised Punch's privacy. I will listen to your input, but still do what I decide.
Good night.
TCOY
- Dan, Punch and I had a promising session with a new therapist for P, who came to our home. Thank you, God.
- Listened to helpful podcast.
- Talked to my cousin Lin.
- Dashed to get groceries. Ate healthful foods, including Ezekiel toast; raspberries; asparagus; roast chicken; salad with my mother-in-law's great dressing; roasted lemon-garlic baby potatoes.
$ MONEY SPENT OUT OF POCKET Items of interest
- Applegate Farm, gallon of local whole milk, $5.
- Kings, roast chicken, large bag yellow baby potatoes, Ezekiel English muffins, rose body wash and half and half, $34.
I have noticed that the more I write (pieces on Medium and more), the less I spend.
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Spending less by writing more... creative expression will out, I guess. Putting together fashion pieces, creating a beautiful moment through objects or scent or self care, or through your pen?
ReplyDeleteI have struggled about telling stories involving my family members. But for you, that writer that’s gong to write because that is who you are, I think you should tell the story. I think it will help you understand, and it might help others as well. You might consider a pause to edit, reflect, obscure certain things, before publishing. But that’s a narrow road,between keeping things private and telling the truth. I certainly don’t have the answer.
Xoxoxo, so glad the therapist is promising. And I appreciate the note of caution, not all in on her yet. Here’s hoping.
Nan
Can you create a fake profile on medium to post P essays? I agree with Nan you should write to get thru this, but I do think it's therapeutic value could be unflinching honesty. I would consider posting under a name that doesn't link to yours. A year from now, maybe go back and polish up for general publication under your name or to understand that you spoke more strongly than a child should be expected to understand. These kids google, I think you need to expect if you post under your own name that someone will show to P and say, this is what your mother thinks of you.
ReplyDeleteGlad you have pros to talk to, hope it helps. Hang in there! My worst years were 12-13, me in high school was much like me today. But I was monstrous in junior high. This won't last forever.
Liz
Hi Nan and Liz. Thanks. I have mulled over your comments twice. For now, I think I am okay with the piece as it is--kind of translucent, I hope, and not transparent. But I'm taking it in. I do think that writing helps me clarify the problems and issues. Love Alice
ReplyDeleteThat is a beautiful letter, Alice. I don’t think it revealed too much, only your love and patience. Love, Linda
ReplyDeleteLin thanks. I have vivid imagination and since you didn’t comment, I thought you were against it. Love Al
DeleteI can only comment on my iPad or phone. My computer sends my comments into cyber never land. Alice, everything you do is okay with me!!!!
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