Note to self: There will be days like this. Hard days. Scary days. Worried days. Worries too private to write about here. Fears that could knock you to the ground if you let them. Flatten you, squash you, disable you.
But you will find your way through. Somehow, you will.
No little gold lock and key for this diary. Thank God for Sis, and friends, and H. and the card he gave you today. Thank God for glimmers of hope and faith. For good things. For Figgy dropping off her requests today for letters of recommendation for Frost Valley summer camp Counselor in Training [letters due December 31]. For a teacher who loves Shakespeare and cares, a boy in class who is respectful and friendly as he chats about Wuthering Heights being the worst book he's ever read, a tall principal who smiles broadly at a worried mother walking through the door. For a warm house and a working computer and a homemade cup of hot cocoa. For art, in all its faces, both soothing and scary.
Stay at bay, gray monsters. Stay at bay. I'm turning out the lights.
Good night.
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Those darn gray monsters. Sometimes they even gain false strength in the middle of the night, for me anyway. So keep thinking your good, thankful thoughts to balance them into perspective. Love, Your Cousin
ReplyDeletethank you, Lin. love alice
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ReplyDeleteI have been reading your blog from the moment I knew that you had one. I am touched by the emotional struggles you are facing, particularly at this time of year which seems loaded for a lot of people, myself included. My hat is off to you. You are an inspiration to me (and probably many others) for your ability to show up when the going's tough, give it your all, smile and even laugh when the occasion warrants it. I only hope that I can provide some moments of levity to your day when I see you.
Stay strong,
Miss Crankypants (from Bootcamp)
Oh Miss C.-you are so far from cranky! You are such an awesome athlete and you keep me smiling. You in your nice workout clothes, racing fast as lightning across the turf! Thank you so much for reading my blog, and for your supportive note. I was glad I got back to BC today. I hate missing it for even a day. And we will be in Maine for Christmas--I will likely miss four whole days of BC. That does not bode well for a snail like me. love alice
ReplyDeleteAlice,
ReplyDeleteAnd you, my friend, are far from a snail! Sometimes we need a break to refresh our batteries. Don't worry about missing BC for Christmas in Maine. It will likely be a beautiful reposo (as they say in Spain) from your life. I've been to Maine once and it was truly peaceful. I look forward to seeing you on Friday (with hubby, who will hopefully make you laugh).
All best,
Crankypants
Yes, my friend, I will see you Friday!!! oh good, Michael too? :) alice
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