Still Feeling Lost & Broken Inside

And it's still too personal to delve into here.

FOOD

• 2:15 am, because that's how long the madness/sadness persisted....another lemon panna cotta in wedding china cup with couple spoonfuls All the Summer Berries on top.I think there were 7 or 8 panna cottas in all. Today, Dan and Punch discovered them, and loved them, plunging their spoons into the quivering cupfuls. And then there were none. Will def make again, and maybe cut sugar back even more, to 5 T.
• 8:30 am, coffee with whole milk. Salted cashews.
• Noon, 4 slice bacon, 2 slice Ezekiel toast, one with butter, one with crunchy PB. Second coffee with whole milk. Half-cup very mediocre deli potato salad. 2 crunchy pickles.
• 7:45 pm, dinner, some mushroom soup, small cheese ravioli, 1 slice cucumber, 1 bite broccoli, 1 Ezekiel toast w butter, 8 whole-grain saltines w butter.
• I think I will have a glass of milk for dessert.

TCOY

1. Support group via Zoom.
2. Walked Sug around block.
3. Walked briefly around farmers' market, wearing mask and keeping social distancing,,and bought a couple of healthy things--crunchy new pickles from Pickle Icious and mushroom soup from Spoon Me Soups. Next time, I'm going back for the chilled mango coconut blend. 
4. Nap.
5. Planted ranunnculus bulbs, trimmed forsythia shrub that was growing wild.

$ MONEY SPENT OUT OF POCKET

• Montclair Farmers Market. Spoon Me Soups, $12 for one frozen quart. Flower farm, 2 potted succulent plants, one for Fig and one for Punch, $10. Pickle Icious, $8. Total, $30.

Total daily spend: $30.

Ongoing monthly spend as of May 2: $30.

Avg daily spend: $15.