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Saturday, December 8, 2012

Fall on Your Knee

O Holy Night! The stars are brightly shining, 

It is the night of the dear Saviour's birth. 

Long lay the world in sin and error pining.
Till He appeared and the Spirit felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn. 

Fall on your knees! Oh, hear the angel voices! 

Maybe I had to have a little spill in order to stop and listen, be still, contemplate. Because last night at about 7:15, hurrying to the car on a slick and rainy path, I fell. Scraped my right knee really badly, and my left ankle is not right. I'm limping a little on the stairs.

I lay there on the gritty black street in front of our house crying, but no one heard me. Everyone was inside. This is not the first time this has happened to me. I also tumbled in the backyard years ago--but Patsy heard me that time--and on the Cape when I was returning from a neighbor's house on the unlit street. And then there was the time when Figgy was in her highchair and her baby sitter was giving her breakfast. I had left for work and then ran back in the door, crying. I had fallen running for the bus on the corner and tore a hole in the right knee of my stockings, again badly cutting that knee. It's scarred.

There's a message in this somewhere. Part of it is my connecting it to the beautiful Nat King Cole version of  "O Holy Night"--the fall on your knees part. I love "The weary world rejoices." Once, when Dad and I were driving somewhere, I played it in the car. 

"Nat King Cole really sings every word so perfectly," Dad said. "It's so clear."

It's true. Dad, are you trying to reach me? Did this fall link me to you and your strong love? I miss you. I have several work deadlines I've been struggling to always encouraged me, believed in me, in a calm, matter-of-fact way. As in, Well, you gotta do it.

I can't find two small notebooks with important project notes, and feel panicked. Have checked every pile and every place. Guess I just have to move on without them, but I'm a stickler for referring to my notes. Guess this is a lesson, too, to work in my office and not branch out to the dining room table. 

Have a good day. As for me, wondering if I should fall on my knees voluntarily, to pray....

  1. Last night, I went to "Putting It Together," a showcase of Broadway hits presented by the School of Visual and Performing Arts @ MHS. I loved it. I went b/c Fig's good friend is on the backstage crew, but the songs touched my soul, made me smile, laugh, think. It was en route to there that I fell...but I was late, so I didn't treat my knee till I returned.
  2. Going to support group.
  3. Want to take walk to clear mind, calm down, but now not sure I can with ankle. Will see.


  1. Take care of yourself and slow down, my friend. xoxo

  2. This is such a nice connection to your dad out of a mishap. I hope your ankle recovers quickly. Love, Lin

  3. Hi Kim....will try...thanks :) Hi Lin....thanks for the missing my Dad....
    love alice